I took metolazone at bedtime last night even though I knew I’d need to get up to pee all night. I just felt so awful that I decided it was worth it. And I was right. I got up every 1-2 hours to pee but my abdomen felt UNFULL when I got up in the morning. God what a difference. I did the washing-up, baked apple-walnut muffins, and started straining some kefir for kefir-yogurt. Now I’m all tired and starting to feel full again but not miserable yet. Yesterday was so horrible. I lay in bed all day like a lump. Couldn’t even handle listening to an audiobook.
Now I know I can trade sleep for a few hours of feeling not-full-and-puffy the next day.
Mom brought home cucumbers for me to pickle, so I’m gonna try really hard to scrape up enough energy for that after I have a little rest. Those full-sours I made are just BEYOND DELICIOUS. I’m definitely a full-sour girl.
So tired. Mom bought me the most adorable pants at our local Weird Discount Store. Linen/rayon blend, woven blue-and-white stripes, pockets, loose and beachy, elastic waist, long enough! I feel so cute in them.
Tired. So tired of being tired. It’s tiring and tiresome.
I found a website full of recipes for single serving meals. I’m excited. I’ve filled my recipe app (paprika) with interesting recipes like pad thai for one (I rewrote it for tofu instead of shrimp, eww), eggplant parmesan for one, split pea soup for one. I have a hell of a time recalibrating my cooking muscle-memory to make non-family-size meals. This should help, and a “single serving” is still probably two-three meals for me. I keep ending up with like a week of leftovers every time I cook for myself. It’s too much.
Also she/he/they list ideas of what to do with your surplus ingredients; for example if you have surplus mozzarella from making eggplant parm, you could use it for a personal pizza or a caprese salad
Hoping to wake up with enough spoons to cook something new for myself sometime soon…
I took a bath and washed my hair this morning, then baked a batch of banana-nut muffins. Perfect recipe. https://sallysbakingaddiction.com/banana-muffins/ but I skipped the spices. I don’t want spices in my banana-nut muffins. Used a cup of walnuts btw.
Then worn out and did nothing for the rest of the day. Zelda, audiobooks, YouTube. Lots of Townsends.
I made a big ol’ spinach lasagna this morning, some for fridge, some for freezer, and then I crashed hard and basically napped for the rest of the day.
WHAT is WITH the INSOMNIA. Why did my brain forgot how to sleep? Ah well, all I can do is ride it out. It wasn’t terrible last night, and I just felt regular-crappy today, not extra-super-crappy.
Got the kitchen uncluttered so our cleaner could give it a good scrub. Also I made crumpets! See video in one of my previous posts. And then I did absolutely nothing for the rest of the day.
Oh! Henry and Jayla stopped by to pick up a dresser that’s been languishing in our basement since they moved. And they were sans children so we could actually have conversations! Henry moved furniture and helped Dave a bit, and Jayla gave the lounge a thorough hoovering and swept the dining room. And we chatted, and it was lovely lovely. I adore the littles but my goodness grown-up time is nice too :)
Yesterday was so awful but today was a million times better. Thank goodness. I lost four pounds of fluid weight in one day, which means my heart and lungs are much happier.
I think about food all the time. I collect recipes, I watch videos, I daydream about nice things to eat, I make elaborate grocery lists. Too bad food doesn’t usually taste good (thanks, potassium) and I can barely eat anything without feeling uncomfortably full (thanks, edema). I just watched an Englishman make crumpets and now I feel like I MUST MAKE CRUMPETS omg. How tempting are they?? Maybe tomorrow. I have everything I’d need and they’re not much work.
Speaking of food, we got our first order from AzureStandard.com yesterday. Henry kindly drove over here to pick it up from our neighborhood drop-off because a) I was in no shape to get out of bed and b) most of it was food for him anyway and c) to lift those ten-pound bags of flour and onions would be a challenge for me. Look, just look at those amazing prices. Organically-grown potatoes for $1.79/lb. Ditto onions for $1.68/lb. A 6lb beam of really good whole milk mozzarella for $3.92/lb. Two kinds super high-quality flour for Henry’s baking (he’s a passionate bread-baker) at $1.89 and $1.40/lb. Oh and my fancy cottage cheese is a dollar cheaper than at the local health food store.
The only disappointing item was the cucumbers— they’re the kind with tough peels. Not great for pickling, and I barely like raw cucumbers when they’re perfect. So I gave them all to Henry. Lulu loves to munch on cucumbers and she started right in on one :)
I kept about 2lbs of the cheese, chopped into half-pound blocks and frozen. Also five pounds of potatoes and the three-pound bag of sweet onions. And two of the three-pack of whole-milk probiotic cottage cheese.
Our next delivery will be in four weeks and I’ve already got my cart started. Dave and Henry have my login so they can shop too. Dave is excited about ground lamb (no antibiotics, grass-fed, pasture-raised) at $15/lb. I’m excited to try some unusual rice and dried beans.
If you want to try Azure Standard, use my referral code and I think I get a $25 credit. Go here: https://www.azurestandard.com/start and put in KaraShallenberg1
See? I think about food all the time. I ate some of my killer-diller black bean and Mexican rice soup for lunch and for dinner I just whipped up a little salad of garbanzo beans, frozen peas, onion, garlic, lemon juice, lime juice, olive oil, and a wee pinch of cayenne. It’s marinating now. LEMONY.
Horrible night. Insomnia like you wouldn’t believe, out of nowhere for no reason. Weird stomach issues. General physical discomfort. Barely slept at all. Puffed up like a pumpkin. Took metolazone and napped all day. Ugh.
